I AM Gopher It.

Hello darkness my old friend

Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Fools said I, you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed
In the wells of silence

Songwriters
PAUL SIMON

‘FINALLY’ – United as ONE in TOTAL but I had to Gopher It.  (2017)

We ALL hold our OWN key to our happiness within.  BELIEVE IT!

We are ALL teachers
We are ALL students
We are FOREVER children.

As a child, some people thought I was very outgoing and confident and I was to a degree but that was SPIRIT (extrovert) who took the lead. My SOUL (empath/introvert) was actually highly sensitive (HSP) and easily hurt.

Like a lot of people, I have experienced bullies, TOO MANY bullies and that is why I cannot tolerate people of this nature.

In 2015 I told my sister how I had come to realise my SOUL and my SPIRIT were separate entities. I had realised how detached I had become to cope with life and the ROLES that I had needed to play.

SPIRIT had learnt to take the lead from a young age and I recall certain times where I knew I had to step up ‘for others’ and so SPIRIT materialised.

SPIRIT was not always present for SOUL but would learn to be to protect the SOUL from hurt.

SPIRIT learned how to laugh, make jokes and entertain with stories in an attempt to deflect bullies which did feed SOUL and gave SOUL a break because she did not fit and there the divide started.

SPIRIT learned to stand in front and defend the SOUL and would have to eventually learn to physically fight which was not easy for SPIRIT but it was survival. It became her job, she became ‘PROTECTOR’.

Throughout the year’s SPIRIT subconsciously became programmed but did not SEE to what extent she had.

Then ‘something’ happened in 2015/2016 that tested SPIRIT in a similar way that she had been tested once before but this TIME it hit harder and she did not understand how this could because she did not believe that anything could ever FEEL so SOUL destroying.

SPIRIT was so exhausted from it and from the injustice she felt AGAIN, that she sat down next to SOUL and said ‘I think we are done this time’ and SOUL was lost because SPIRIT has always pulled through.

SOUL needs SPIRIT and SPIRIT needs SOUL (Yin and Yang) – so what happens now? where do we go from here? and as hard as SPIRIT tried to get up for SOUL, she couldn’t – And ‘in the silence’ together they fell for another TIME – back into the abyss, a place that SPIRIT thought she could not take SOUL again.

ALONE and in pain they laid together and the coverlet called darkness slowly pulled itself over them, once more.

Author – I AM Gopher It

Published by Gopher It

'Gopher It' came about as a result of an incident that turned my world ‘WRITE’ side up. Bullies ‘taught’ ME from a young age that MY LIFE was to be a game of strategy if I wanted to survive them. BULLYING is not a new issue, it has been around for centuries but people seem to be associating the word and its meaning more, OR ARE THEY? Have people become ‘educated’ to believe that bullies are not bullies, they are ‘management?' Life is not for surviving, it is for living and it would take an incident in 2017 that was to undeniably shake me awake. My heart took me to the hospital where I was to see and hear something that ONLY I was to witness - I received a DIVINE message. I was about to un-program from ALL that I never was, to be ALL that I AM. This is my journey of UNDERSTANDING what subconscious BELIEF system I had learnt and how I changed it. The Law of Attraction is just that, what vibration we emit we do attract back.